It's not insomnia, it's more of an addiction, a greed, a mind i cannot seem to contain. it begins with two cups of coffee in the late of night and the self-assurance of bridging the gap of sisterhood.

tuesday's soeul garden with the pre-u sem people was good though it was only the 6 of us. after dinner we had a romantic stroll to clarke quay. one of the things that give me a strange seemingly-childhood pleasure is crossing a bridge. i love doing that! for me, it was some time to chill out and it was really relaxing with all those colourful balls lol. the lights the water the music of ripples and of contented people whispering, the night was beautiful.

sgp idol was full of feel even i got all hyped up watching it on my beanbag!
today i watched the chinese show and i could see myself in that man, he put in words a bunch of feelings that often coarse through me in an uncomprehensible language. often there seems to be too many expectations, but there's only so much of me. it wears me down tires me out yet the onus always seems to fall on me. last night Jay sang Air Supply's Goodbye. i heard him sing about so many different people in one song.

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong




Isn't it strange how my tea are nothing but pure powder at first? there's the coffee powder and the sugar, and the mash potato before it transforms magically into mash potato. by the way, my sister bathes as often as Winter (she shamelessly admitted this today) lol

the book i've been reading, Baby on Board is ending. as i read it i can't help comparing and noting subtle differences between the fiction and personal reality.

i have to stop my terrible habits, or what i call my remote luxuries, of having those suppers and keeping terrible hours. HAHAHA i have just typed a very very funny joke online in Van's MSN window. and she went 'whoa haha' here's great proof of my ability to tell funny jokes.

if i had loads of money now, i'd go buy xiao long baos for supper, that fossil handbag, more toys for Best Friend and the metal house, yummy Extremely Chocolatey Mini Rings, bananas, those chocolate marshmallows for Justin, xiao long baos for Van as well, and the Fly me to the Moon CD and the comfy space type bed and pillows! oh oh and Q, the perfume. it's The Orchid. by the way, never, NEVER rub your perfume in! this is what i have learnt from Christophe.




today was a fantabulous day. in the morning i had time for a rushed cup of coffee and pepper crab mashed potato. and then was the surprise! pool was fun and so was our big lunch. met Charissa i haven't seen her for the longest time! anyway have fun in UK, Justin, but do not buy keychains that cost above S$15

then i was an IG and went all by myself for a haircut. they served chinese tea! the hairdresser heard about my plans for the day so she took her time cutting my hair (strand by strand, she said) lol so the haircut lasted for over an hour.

met Sammi for tea and dinner. tsk with Pizza Hut, Coffeebean and Pepper Lunch all in a day! it was really relaxing watching her fascinated with toys and then buying Curious George and Spin-spin, trying on tops and cooking our dinner. anyway my wallet's empty now and i still have to contribute to Huis' Ipod Video fund.

next week will be the start of the Cancer research/Infomatics project. tomorrow the catching up on this semester's work begins. but there's Pre-U Sem outing to look forward to!

amongst many i have lots of freedom. but perhaps a little more would be good. this sounds like a typical Cheryl entry. what i feel like doing now is swimming! anyway i've been really happy this past week, with all my late night/early morning suppers with myself (unless my sis crashes it). solitude is a rare luxury. this is strangely sounding like my previous post. am i tired!




hehe i've been happy for two days just cos of that. i feel like Van seriously, such little things always put a smile on her face for rather long periods of time. however, i can't help feeling a little disappointed. i should have kept that tiny thread attached.

but i'm thankful i've got such a great Bf she knows i'm a little bit sad and here's what she said

who wears a broken heart on your sleeve says:
what wld you like from me?
who wears a broken heart on your sleeve says:
a dish? a present? a msg? tell me

you're the best
now she's busy drawing all sorts of pirates to make me smile.

anyway recalling all my attractions so far including that drink stall young guy and a certain humans teacher, as well as someone's crush on a rapid-talking chinese teacher (i must say i'm in awe too), hmmm then there was a really wise and sweet someone i looked up too when i was rather impressionable, the Mark Chay we squealed about, Oliver James (i love his voice surrounding the theater!), also Gab and ...

i wanna play charades.

anyway Bryan, if you're reading this, Happy Birthday again! i must be first and last to wish you, huh ;)

today i was a free rider. i walked past Wasabi Japanese Restaurant and the scents and pleasing aroma was yummy! speaking of this, i should get down to clearing my room and doing some work really soon. let's not spoil the mood now. ooh i remember i was crazy about Aaron Carter for a really short period of time when i was in Sec 1/2 and he was on my wall where i could see him everyday.

i'm getting a haircut soon, but it'll still be long. someone just asked "oh yes how's your pimples" tsk roar i know they were huge, about the largest ones ever but that was cos i had to use a facial foam that didn't suit my skin cos the normal one was all used up! anyway it's really great to get a break from school, a break fromeverything i enjoy sitting in front of the com typing lots of random stuff just for the luxury of it, this opportunity that time rarely presents.




woke up at my latest for a long time today- 5pm. pre-u sem was great fun once we got to know each other better and singing those songs made us sad to leave. truth or dare, charades and polar bear on the last night was fun though we didn't have macs delievery after all. listening to Bryan sing and the gay duet was hilarious. anyway the seminar was about making a short film and discussions and i got to try my hands at video editing.

the sun is shining really brightly it's dusk now. before the seminar, this blog missed my great birthday. i've been so busy i haven't thought about being 17 at all. maybe this year will be as packed as it's been so far. in reverse chronological order, Van, Mak and KJ for the shining heart i had to walk so long to see, Justin and the surprise they whispered about all week that ended very touchingly in St Anne's Chapel with the Lord, dinner with Bf, and celebrating with my family.

anyway i caught X-Men 3 and i liked it! now i wanna watch the previous two as well. yesterday's She's the Man was also good, though the original Twelfth Night is much better, chick flicks always give me a good feeling inside. and rum with all those fruits was yummy! so was the Kungfu pasta and that cafe i've always wanted to try.

the stomach butterflies thing only happens in books, i thought. maybe it was the uncertainty of the night, or the song.

i almost forgot, last weekend was the Telok Kurau Primary camp. we stayed in their nicest decorated airconed classroom with Jack and Jill, Little Lamb, Humpty Dumpty and many others. there was a hopscotch area and Jen, Huis and i relieved our childhood memories. it doesn't seem like too long ago when we played that at Holy Inn. i fell asleep while being gamemaster for the vertical challenge. poor Sammi was sick and i had the pleasure and the opportunity of playing nurse! i think the kids had fun.

i hope i'm not awake and kicking late tonight.

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